The romance book continues to write itself in my head, but I'm fighting it! I promised myself when I started that I would finish my current book before I wrote anything else, and I'm going to do it dammit! No more half finished books! I'm doing a lot of reading at the moment, and part of the romance bug having hit is that I'm reading a lot of Nora Roberts, who is also a great writer that I can recommend. I'm currently reading her Three Sister trilogy which is great. I'll post the titles when I can remember them.
I took the test to see which kind of soul I am, and apparently I'm passionate. Hmmm. Hopefully it'll post here, but this is the first time I've tried to post anything into my blog, so we'll see.





I am truly passionate.

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I feel gross this morning - I've got a headache that is threatening to turn into a migraine.
I've been trying not to think about the romance novel, but the thing is writing itself in my head! It won't go away. I now have the history of the hero, a supporting character and some big plot chunks. I'm really looking forward to writing it. If anyone is interested, the heroine is going to be a cop, and the hero is a criminal mastermind that she's hunting down, and it's going to take place in England and somewhere like Colombia. Now if it would just stay out of my head for long enough to let me finish the current novel, that would be good.

Okay, what happened to yesterday's post? Where has it gone?
I've been reading Sheila's new romance trilogy (Paradise Island, Dream Mountain, Sun Valley) written under the name of Gena Hale. Let me just say that they are all brilliant! I don't usually read much romance, but I picked them up because they were Sheila's, and I couldn't put them down! Fantastic characters, exciting action, just great. Anyway, I think they got into my subconscious yesterday, because last night I had a dream which gave me the most amazing idea for a romance novel - hero, heroine and plot were already there fully formed in the dream. I've never written romance in my life, but I am tempted to write this story as I can't stop thinking about it. I think I'll write it just foir fun and see where it leads me.

Yay! I have comments again

Okay, I'm hoping that we have comments again. Fingers crossed.

Everything seems difficult right now, and I know why, it's because I'm feeling a bit depressed. I haven't admitted that to anyone in the real world yet, I've known, and now my blog knows, but I haven't said it out loud. That probably seems a bit dumb to most of you - why shut yourself off from people when you don't need to? And dumb it is, but somehow if I don't acknowledge it, it's not real. Yeah, I know it's called denial, but what the hell. Depression scares the crap out of me - when I was 18 I had a major depressive episode. I was suicidal. The scariest thing was that it was out of my control - I couldn't make it stop. It lasted roughly a year, which was easily the worst year of my entire life. After I got better I decided that I would never be depressed like that again (like it's under my control), and most of the time I am fine, but when things build up, like they are now, I can feel it still there waiting to come out, and that scares me.

Technology is scary stuff - I think I've just added a counter to the bottom of the page, either that or the thing is about to self-destruct.
Writing is going okay - did 1300 words in a couple of hours the other day, which was pretty damn impressive. Now if I could only get that sort of production going every day I'd be laughing. The story has now gotten interesting - The bad guy (Markham) has just turned up and he's pretending to be nice, but steering the heroine in the direction of her destruction. It'll be a while before she realises that though. I'm now trying to get myself to write the next scene where she finds out something nasty about herself.

I've been doing a little writing, here and there over the past few weeks, and I re-discovered an interesting fact - writing can help you get through difficult times. When things in the real world are going badly you can step into another world, and it's different there, their problems are different. And even though it's not real, it can help.
The book itself is going...slowly is probably the best word I can use. I'm going through a difficult patch with it. I keep having huge blasts of self-doubt, along the lines of 'this book is rubbish, I have no talent, why am I doing this?' I don't know if it's just self-doubt and no reflection on the book, or whether it really is rubbish, I won't know until I finish it. But it sure makes finishing it hard.

Well, the article is now finished and has been sent to Zette. I can breathe a sigh of relief for another two months.